I've Gotta Have You...

This weekend we celebrated the anniversary of the day I became a mom, a.k.a the the 5 year-old's birthday party. On that chilly October day 5 years ago, the sky split open in a flash of light and sweat and tears and breathless wonder. Upon my chest was placed the most terribly wonderful little creature I had ever laid eyes on: Makayla Joy Ensunsa. There was nothing in all of my existence that I could possibly liken or compare this moment to. I had previously thought that being pregnant was the craziest thing ever, that I could not possibly be more uncomfortable, more "inconvenienced",  more uncertain about what lay ahead from one day to the next for me. Little did I know, the journey of carrying her in my belly was but a shadow of the parenting paradox: to be given a treasure that you never want to let go of, only to find that to truly love it is to let it go. I have never been the same, and I wouldn't want to be. Oh, how I adore my sweet Kayla Joy. :)