Sometimes, in moments when next year somehow seems like tomorrow, and milestones are whizzing past my head like a hornet, I just want to close my eyes and stop breathing. Would that the answer to my anxieties was that simple: to simply press the "pause" button on aging, bodily function, commitments, the time continuum itself. Oh, how sweet it sounds to my soul, to take one deep breath--inhale and exhale--and step outside the back door of my history. I want to be off of life's radar for just a day or even a few hours. I know that's not how it works, but I'm only human, and I'm not gonna lie, copping out does cross my mind from time to time. I can imagine myself in a serene, gray landscape, wandering aimlessly without fear, consequence, good or evil, happy or sad, late or on time. I'd just be floating on a plane of limitless volume, leaving no mark, just taking a time-out from the dryness of our planet. The closest I could come to such release right now is a long, deep sigh, and a well-made margarita. And maybe a huge cupcake. In the meantime, I'll settle for the deep sigh. Please don't read too much into this, I'm not losing my marbles or talking emo-crazy talk. This is just a few marbles that are knocking around in my noggin. I love life, truly. Pages and pages could be filled with accounts of the abundance of good things I've been given, and I have lived with more joy these days in just learning to be thankful, than any season of my life in the past before I began learning the painful lesson that the world's axis is not, in fact, directly correlated with my disposition. Come to think of it, I should probably fill some pages with the story of God's faithfulness to me. More to come...
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...and the other thing is:
I'm challenging myself to take lots of pictures EVERY DAY this summer. I'm also going to try to post one (or two or three) snapshots of all the photopalooza here. Gives me a good excuse to put my two cents in the blogosphere machine on a regular basis, haha.
And in keeping with my usual fashionable tardiness, here are yesterday's and today's pic picks :) :
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| Yesterday... |
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And today, so far... :)
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Blessings,
Bea